To my friends at NAMI-

This was sent to me from a friend who wanted it shared as much as possible.

Warning- don't read if you're likely to be triggered.  My friend writes about her abuse so that others may know it it safe to talk to people like us- others who understand.  We want everyone out there who has suffered abuse such as this to know You ARE NOT ALONE!  

There also is more help now, since the spreading of information on ACEs.

To my friends at NAMI-

We do not have a brain disease.  Our parents were our abusers.  And now we are stepping up and talking about it.  We will break that cycle, now.

TRIGGER WARNING, TRIGGER WARNING!
Please share, but always use trigger warning. do not read on, if you are at all likely to get triggered.

Staci Moses Bell is feeling powerful.

August 11 · 

This is Barry Miles Moses, He adopted me when I was 3, when he married my mother. They are both from Chicago, Il. . He began sexually molesting me at 3 1/2 or so. I will not go into graphic details, suffice it to say it was done in a way so as not to draw attention to any vaginal abnormalities. Get my drift. In fact he told me later in life, he only married my mother because he was so "in love" with me. Beating me began at 5 shortly after my half sister was born. He threatened to kill anyone I might tell. And he assured me he would say I was lying. My mother helped him emphasize that to me. She explained clearly in my teen years that she had to chose and she decided to chose Barry, Michelle(half sister and David half brother.) First hospital ER trip, age 5. My scar is still visible on my forehead.I do recall the head injury was a huge concern.He hit me with a slab of wood.The horrific abuse on all levels continued until I finally found the strength the leave just before my 18th birthday. Age 8, Barry tried to drown me in the indoor pool at the Dolphin Motel in Des Plaines, IL. A hotel staff member heard my screams when I tried to get some air, and when they rushed in, Barry pulled me up, laughed and told them he was playing and that I was overreacting. I told them I was fine because under the water he was squeezing my leg so hard. A warning to say I was fine. We moved to Dayton, Ohio when I was 10 or 11. Barry began dressing me, picking out my clothes, bras, underwear. Watching me dress to make sure I was wearing what he deemed appropriate. Not only was he picking out personal items for a female child, he picked clothes that a baby doll would wear. Age 14, Highland Park, IL Barry and my mother dragged me into the bathroom by my hair, shoved my head into the toilet, flushed it and told me I was s**t and do I understand that is what I am and where I belong. Age 16, my mother, in front of her life long best friend orders me to undress to prove I was not having sex with my high school boyfriend. Her Valium addiction must have gotten the better end of her judgement that day. She was normally very careful around this particular woman.After her friend left, she then slapped me across the face until I bled when I told her no I was not and had never done that with anyone.which was true. At least as far as boys, she knew about Barry. Evidence clearly led her to believe someone was touching that area. She later told me I had embarrassed her in front of her friend.She said she had no choice but to hit me. Age 16-17, Highland Park, IL. we lived in a subdivision called Chantilly. Under the stairs was a very small storage space. Everyday for close to a year I came home directly from school and was placed in the room for several hours. No food, water, light, bathroom. As I recall this particular punishment was for the infraction of having a boyfriend. I was also not allowed to eat a normal dinner. One evening my mother had made chicken wings. A pile was placed in the center of the table. I was given 1 wing and told that was all I was permitted to eat. I was called obscenely obese and that I disgusted him. I was a size 7 and was 17. I got sick toward the end of my senior year of high school. They left me in my room alone for days and when I would beg for help from my mom, I was told to leave them alone. By the time I was rushed to the Highland Park hospital ER my lymph nodes where the size of two soft balls (per ER dr.) and it was a miracle I hadn't suffocated. When he asked why I had not been brought in sooner, my parents told them I never said I was sick. I was diagnosed with sever Mononucleosis, dehydration, unexplained bruising and sent home. I ran away 2 weeks later. I ran to a friend's house in Highland Park. Two friends from the drama department (Aaron) who passed away several years ago, was my protector that night. As best as a 17 year old could protect me. I hid me in Diane's bedroom until her parents called mine asking for assurance that if I returned home he would not kill me. They got their assurance and I was taken home. I don't recall seeing daylight for several weeks. Both parents also removed me from any activity involving the school's drama department.

Not one person, Doctor, teacher, nurse, camp counselor, aunt, uncle, cousin, friend's parents, friends of my parents no one ever intervened. All were complacent.

These are not even the highlights and certainly not even close to other daily events. My fear putting the details on here is that FB will remove the post! I recently spoke to the Psychiatrist I saw from my late teens to my early 20's , Amazingly enough, he is still in practice in Chicago.He not only remembered me, he told me all he was trying to accomplish at a certain point was to get me out of the house. He had not seen anyone who lived in such fear on a constant daily basis. I will go into the results of all this trauma another day. Those of you who know me and think you know me well, now know you know nothing about me. This is the first time in my life I have shared this with anyone other than recent therapists.

Barry moved to Taipei, Taiwan 30 years ago and has been hiding there since. Yearly trips to the US done under cover as to hide his appearance here from many including the IRS, US government. Tax evasion, and many so called mobsters that he owned money to. The majority of his trips involve him flying into Los Angeles, then on to Denver to see my half brother and on to Chicago to see my half sister. I plan to be the first successful lawsuit ever brought on both parents for sexual, physical and emotional torture. You see, my mother, Barbara Donnie Fischer Moses Abrams, protected him and enabled him.

These are just a few highlights of what goes on in a pristine wealthy family behind closed doors.
There will be more to come. I plan to expose the entire family. Name by name. The list of members of my immediate family that either contributed to the torture or enabled. This list also includes my biological father Arnold Jay Barco. I will get to my mother and his abuse in the next post.

This sick pedophile violent man took my life from me and now it's payback. I'm ready, strong, brave and he and my mother cannot hurt me anymore.

Barry Miles Moses is hiding as the "American Managing Partner" of a company called BMMZ in Taipei. His company supplies mainly to Target, Walmart, etc. When you buy those funky looking socks or gloves, you are helping a pedophile and violent man.. They do not mention his real name on their website to hide his involvement. from the US government. Here is all his contact information, including his company's website.A word to all family members on all social sites I am exposing your parents as well. Like I said, full exposure. This is all I can handle today. I will be adding more and photos with contact info on every one of them that I am able to locate. Many are dead now, but Barry is alive and well. Feel free if the urge strikes to boycott any of his products. I plan to take this to court. The statute of limitations runs out on child abusers once this much time has passed. I call Bullsh*t. Again the predator is protected and yet for lesser crimes it never runs out. #timesup. No more hiding for me or you.

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http://www.bmmz.com/2012-13/World%20of%20BMMz%20-%20CEO.htm

BMMz is a Taiwanese company specializing in the manufacture and export of fashion accessories which include knitted Gloves, Hats, Scarves, Headbands, Toe Socks, and Slipper Socks, from Taiwan, as well as Baseball Hats and Visors, from China. BMMz has been in business since 1983. OUR MANAGING PARTNER IS AMERICAN WITH MORE THAN 35 YEARS OF INTERNATIONAL TRADE AND MANUFACTURING EXPERIENCE.

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