I'm using a borrowed computer which is working today, but now I have until May 9th to be out of this apt. and will be homeless again. People suggest I fight it, as it is so wrong- but if I get an official eviction notice, I'll never get into low income housing, again. No car to live out of either. Don't know where I'll be or how I'll be there. I have two people from the Flea Market, where SEASCAT has it's physical location, who have been very supportive. I was told I could sleep there on occasion. Last summer. I had someone I worked with promise me a place to sleep, and the day I had to be out of my old apt. she changed her mind. And, yes- I'm downright terrified. My blood sugar has been high, the top # of my blood pressure still high, my broken foot is excruciating, not to mention the fibromyalgia, arthritis and chronic fatigue.
My mother died a few days ago, and I really thought I'd never be in this position again...........
But despite it all, it was a good day. A young couple came in to the store and they bought a few things from ESN thrift and from SEASCAT. As I got to telling them about SEASCAT, the girl got tears in her eyes and asked questions and I was able to suggest a good therapist for her and tell her about the lending library and worksheets. She promised she'd be back to use the lending library, also and dropped more in the donation can for SEASCAT. Plus, I had another young-ish woman who wanted a lot of things but was hurting for $....... I told her she could barter for things by volunteering and she was really happy to hear that. She swore she'd be back along with her two teenage daughters- hope she follows thru.
The world isn't black and white, like I used to believe it was. I have to let go of the pain caused by my neighbors, and the fear that I won't survive this bout of homelessness- all my neighbors aren't evil. The sad thing I, again, don't know who to trust.
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